Crazy To Love You*

There’s a new boy in my life

He’s only twenty three –

One wonders what he wants

With someone as old as me.

And all my insecurities 

Come rushing in:

Does he really like me,

How can he even like me –

I’m too old and ill and mental,

He’s got his whole life ahead of him.

He can earn a living

Singing and playing his guitar:

His first single’s out this week –

He’s so good at what he does.

And is it my disorder

That fills me with such doubt

Or is it all the knocks I’ve had

From Seb and countless others –

Nightmares in their different ways.

I’ve made such a mess of love –

But I can’t do without it.

Male attention is my favourite drug,

And you know how I like them young.

He’s got floppy hair,

An innocent face,

A winning smile.

He’s intense with an artistic temperament:

Takes himself so seriously

As young men do.

He’s malleable and graceful,

Enthusiastic and sweet.

I can’t believe that I’ve got another chance

To make someone happy –

Please let me not fuck it up this time:

I deserve a bit of good luck

Although we know it doesn’t work like that.

He’s coming to see me this evening –

Maybe I’ll even wash my hair,

Put on a dress, heels and make up

Cover my anxiety with glitter eyeliner and lipstick.

And he’ll never know how scared I am

That it’ll all end in tears

Like it always bloody does.

The attached photo is today’s Spin outfit.

Here is graph.  Forgot to take monitor off for ages after the end of Spin.  The green and yellow is in the actual class:


Here is the fluffy monster earlier today:


And some from the farm this morning:


Happy Saturday everyone!
*2012.  Song by Leonard Cohen from the 2012 album Old Ideas.

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2 comments

  1. L. Rorschach · January 23

    Just try to relax and enjoy. I know – easier said than done. He sounds lovely. 😊 xx

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