The Familiars*

This morning I do my Personal Training over Zoom. I work very hard and do thirty six different exercises. My trainer is pleased with me.

It’s raining and Fluffball is in a lot so I play with him using his piece of elastic which he likes to catch. He’s in for the evening now:

I finish the Pat Barker book yesterday and have just started this which my lovely Aunty gave me and is about witches 🧙‍♀️:

Need to have my bath 🛀 now and then we have spaghetti for supper.

Yesterday Mum records a black and white film with Deborah Kerr from Talking Pictures so we will watch that. More details tomorrow.

Am lying on my bed and the panther lies on the floor next to me. He is grooming his flank: rasping it with his rough tongue.

Happy Thursday everyone!

*2019. By Stacey Halls. Historical novel.

The Long Dark Tea-Time Of The Soul*

Last night watch Gardeners’ World with Mum and a couple of episodes of The English Game which we are enjoying.

Do Zoom Barre again this morning. It seems to be getting harder. My teacher explains that this is because there are no breaks online as there are in real life as we’re all muted.

Bad day thinking about Seb a lot. Will I ever stop thinking about him, I wonder. Pull the Three of Swords, which is an apt card for today as it’s the card of heartbreak:

Play with Fluffball with his piece of elastic which is fun for both of us. He is in now:

He was sitting with me but has now gone to sit with Mum in the hall. Mum is on the phone. She is always on the phone these days.

Am sitting on the sofa in the living room and the panther lies next to me with his head in my lap. I stroke the soft back of his neck.

Happy Wednesday everyone!

*1988. By Douglas Adams. Fantasy detective novel: the second Dirk Gently mystery.

The Silence Of The Girls*

Am not feeling well today. Katie from Mind calls at 9.30am and then I go back to sleep.

Start reading this which is good. It’s about Achilles and the Trojan War:

It is told from the point of view of Briseis who was awarded to Achilles as a prize of honour. Have had the book since it was published in 2018 but am only now getting round to reading it.

I write to Gandalf’s owner for news of him, and he sends me this lovely photo. How I miss this boy:

It’s been raining all day and Fluffball has been in a lot. He’s in for good now. I will post this and my Tarot For Growth April post and then go and cuddle my pet.

Only manage a protein drink for lunch and sleep till 5.20pm.

Hope to feel better by Barre tomorrow.

Am lying on my bed writing this. The panther sits on the windowsill, looking out at the rain 🌧.

Happy Monday everyone!

*2018. By Pat Barker. Historical novel.

No Way Out*

So last night we watch No Way Out starring Kevin Costner which is a thriller set at the Pentagon. It’s on Amazon Prime but don’t rush to see it.

This morning I do my Zoom Barre class. It’s a tough class today.

Have lunch, meditate and sleep. When I wake up, this person is in:

He finds a piece of elastic and starts playing with it, so I play with it with him.

Put my clothes away from the airer and phone a friend to wish him Happy Birthday. It looks like I’ll be having a Lockdown birthday to on 15th May.

I’m lying on my bed writing this. The panther is curled up at the end of my bed, sleeping. Every so often he twitches an ear or the tip of his tail.

We have a Zoom dinner date with some of my parental friends later. Need to have my bath 🛀.

On the plus side: Katie from Mind is back at work and will call me at 9.30am tomorrow.

Happy Monday everyone!

*1987. Feature film. Stars Kevin Costner and Gene Hackman.

Sudden Fear*

Dad finds the Joan Crawford thriller Sudden Fear on Amazon Prime so we watch that last night. Recommend it.

This morning I have my weekly Zoom chat with my besties. It is good to see them.

Then drive with Mum up to Aldenham where we go for a walk in the woods. We see bluebells:

And lilac:

We meet a gorgeous Rough Collie called Simba but we are not allowed to touch him due to social distancing.

Message Gandalf’s owner to see how he is but haven’t heard back yet.

We have lunch in the garden. Apparently this is the last hot day for a while.

Meditate and sleep till five o’clock. Then sit in the garden for a bit.

Am lying on my bed writing this and the panther sits on the windowsill looking out over the garden. The tip of his tail twitches.

Happy Sunday everyone!

*1952. Feature film. Stars Joan Crawford and Jack Palance.

Cards On The Table*

Last night we watch Cards On The Table which is one of my favourite Poirot episodes.

Zoom Barre this morning which is great but tough. I’m definitely not as fit as I was before Lockdown.

Speak to my psychiatrist Dr Stein and tell him how low mood is. He advises to put my antidepressant dose up to combat the panther. He says that all his patients are unhappy in Lockdown.

Have lunch in the garden, then meditate and sleep till 4.45pm.

There is a bud on the tree peony:

And buds on the orange azalea in the front garden:

Mum calls Fluffball in the front garden and he trots down the road to us. He rolls in the road when he reaches us, covering himself in dirt and bits of twig. Now he is inside looking out of the window:

Sometimes when he is all curled up one forgets how gorgeous he is. Look at that beautiful boy.

Am writing this on my bed and the panther lies next to me, resting his heavy head in the small of my back.

Happy Saturday everyone!

*1936. By Agatha Christie. Hercule Poirot detective novel.

The English Game*

So last night we start watching the new Julian Fellowes series The English Game about football in 1879. It’s good fun and on Netflix so give it a go.

Am brave at the cancer hospital. Mum isn’t allowed in with me due to lockdown so I have to go through my Zoladex injection, blood tests and my horrible Fulvestrant bum injections alone. The nurse says I am very brave.

Have lunch, meditate and sleep. Then finish my book in the garden. The writers’ revolution ends in defeat and a bloodbath sadly.

Here are some of the tulips 🌷:

Fluffball is in now. I need to cuddle him. Mum is going to wash my hair.

Am lying on my bed writing this and the panther lies next to me, resting his heavy head on my shoulder.

We have cauliflower soup for supper.

Happy Friday everyone!

*2020. TV series. Stars Edward Holcroft and Kevin Guthrie.

Dreamers*

Wake up and do my Personal Training over Zoom. Work hard and my trainer is pleased with me.

Finish my Patricia Highsmith biography.

Start reading this which is about a short-lived revolution in Bavaria in 1918 where the writers took power. It is fascinating:

Have lunch, meditate and sleep and then continue reading my book in the garden. Fluffball is outside with me.

Mum takes Fluffball in. He is now sitting on his favourite chair in the playroom:

Today’s card is XII: The Hanged Man. He is the perfect symbol for the limbo of lockdown:

I need to have my bath 🛀 and move my weights and Pilates ball out of my bedroom. Am lying on my bed writing this. The panther lies on my gym mat on the floor.

Happy Thursday everyone!

*2017. By Volker Weidermann. Historical book.

Rear Window*

So last night we watch Rear Window which is one of my favourite Hitchcock films, starring James Stewart and a luminous Grace Kelly. Do see it if you haven’t already: it’s on Netflix.

This morning do Barre 🩰 over Zoom which is hard work but it’s good to see my lovely teacher and I’m able to use my new exercise band.

This morning Facebook shows me this picture of my Fluffball six years ago today, before he had his mane:

Just look at that gorgeous little face.

Here he is today:

Today I have lunch, meditate and sleep and then read my book in the garden. It is warm and sunny again today. We are being very lucky with this lockdown weather: after all in April it could be raining every day.

I’m lying on my bed writing this and the panther lies next to me, resting his heavy head on my shoulder.

I need to have my bath 🛀.

Happy Wednesday everyone!

*1954. Feature film. Stars James Stewart and Grace Kelly. Directed by Alfred Hitchcock.

The Chicken Soup Murder*

Today I go for a walk with Mum up to the fields where we hope there will soon be cows and their calves. We see some chickens:

And a beautiful oak tree 🌳 with very bright green new leaves:

It is a sunny day again which is good. This lockdown would be far worse if it was raining and we couldn’t go for our walks.

Sit in the garden with Mum and read my book. Then it is lunchtime. After lunch I meditate and sleep.

Wake up at 4.45pm and have coffee ☕️ and an apple 🍎.

Mum catches Fluffball and we give him his pill.

Now must have my bath 🛀 and then hopefully can find some tennis to watch.

Am lying on my bed writing this. The panther lies next to me. He is cleaning himself: he rasps his flank with his rough tongue.

Happy Tuesday everyone!

*2018. By Maria Donovan. Crime fiction and coming of age story.