The Searcher*

Here I am with my cousin’s new puppy who I met yesterday. He’s a whippet and at the moment he’s very soft and velvety, although his fur will become coarser. He seems very sweet and good-natured.

I go to bed about seven o’clock last night and then wake up at half past eight. I’m confused as to whether or not I’ve slept till the next morning. It turns out that I haven’t. Mum gives me my pills and I wake up at about six o’clock this morning, have my breakfast and then return to sleep till half past seven.

Do a recording of a Pilates class that my lovely teacher sent me, so although they’re all at the studio without me, at least I’m exercising.

Go up to the farm with Mum and we purchase some food: marmalade, fudge and coffee ice cream 🍨. We also visit the greengrocer and buy a pineapple 🍍amongst other things. It’s too busy for me to accompany Mum into the shop so I don’t know what else is in the two bags of fruit and vegetables.

Card of the Day is Justice from my gorgeous Neon Moon 🌙 Tarot Deck, given to me by some friends and cousins.

Meditate 🧘‍♀️ and sleep, but not for long enough. Sit in garden 🪴 with Mum whilst she plants the summer flowers in the hanging baskets: geraniums and Busy Lizzies.

Then it’s my bath 🛀 followed by watching Andy Murray’s First Round match from yesterday.

Then we go out to look for Fluffball and find him in the hedge at the front of the house. Picking him up, I carry him through to his bedroom whilst Mum closes all the doors and windows.

I’m just going to post this and then go to sleep.

Happy Wednesday everyone!

*2020. By Tana French. Crime thriller set in rural Ireland.

Concern For The Nervous Disposition Of Whippets*

Wake up at six o’clock this morning and have my breakfast. Then go back to sleep until Mum wakes me up at quarter past nine.

It’s another hot 🥵 sunny day. I have a special visitor:

It’s So Good to see my Gandalf. Kiss and cuddle him. He is limping quite badly because of his arthritis and his owner had just been at the vet, collecting a stronger medication for him – poor boy.

Do Pilates and work really hard. There are just three of us in the class – the most advanced ones – so we do Difficult Moves using the roller.

Mum’s friend is here after their walk so chat to him and have lunch in the garden 🪴.

There is pandemonium as the new fridge arrives: the old one died aged forty one. Here is new one:

Meditate 🧘‍♀️ and sleep, but not for long enough. Wake up and watch Dan Evans playing the new Australian, Popyrin.

Receive a message from my Agent that she has just read the Memoir and she loves it so much that she didn’t want it to stop. So it looks like you’re going to receive another book from me after all.

Go to my aunt and uncle’s house to meet the new puppy. He is a whippet called Teddy:

He is soft and velvety and seems very friendly.

Now am home and we have captured Fluffball and am going to sleep.

Happy Tuesday everyone!

*2019. By Adrian Bentley. Crime thriller fiction novel.

Astrology And Cosmology In The World’s Religions*

Sleep from eight o’clock last night till almost seven o’clock this morning. Manage a protein drink 🥤 on awakening and then toast and marmalade at eight o’clock. The swallowing problem has lessened thank G-d. Write two pages of Memoir and then read Heavy Weather. It’s so good to be transported to Blandings and the Empress 🐖 🐷.

Order the whole Blandings series.

Work hard at Pilates at nine fifteen and then chat to my teacher and chums.

It is raining 🌧 all morning. Have a lovely visitor: darling Gandalf. It’s so good to see him. Look:


Have a scone with goat 🐐 cheese and some amazing green soup that Mum made for me: spinach, broccoli 🥦, asparagus, garlic 🧄, onion 🧅 and potato. This is success!

Meditate 🧘‍♀️ and sleep. Wake up and have a mango 🥭 and coffee ☕️ 🍨 which slides down throat without hurting.

Book in a couple of Tarot Readings 🔮 for new clients.

Fluffball comes in and goes to sleep. My precious angel 😇.

Finally hang my In Bloom picture. Isn’t it wonderful. The artist 👨‍🎨 has synaesthesia so sees music as colours. This is for the Nirvana song In Bloom:

In Bloom by Jake Andrew Nason


Receive my birthday presents a bit early from my Aunty. Show you:

Happy Saturday everyone!

*2012. By Nicholas Campion. Book by the famous astrologer.

The Beautician’s Notebook*

Violently sick 🤮 again last night and have to sleep with Mum again. Sleep well and return to own bed at six o’clock this morning. It’s bitterly cold 🥶 in my room so I keep on my dressing gown and tracksuit trousers and huddle under my duvet and blanket.

Mum hangs out the sheets in the garden and Fluffball climbs up on a chair, under a sheet. Can’t see him but see the sheet moving as he makes himself comfortable.

Break my old CD 💿 player last week and new one arrives last night. It’s amazing:

The LED lights move round as the music plays 🎶.

Speak to my Macmillan nurse: lovely Liz. She is coming round next Tuesday. It will be good to see her: she is so kind, helpful and knowledgeable.

Walk round to Kathy to purchase some cards and cuddle the dogs and chickens. Fluffball trots after us and I have to put him back in the house.

Work hard at Pilates and teacher is pleased with me. It’s an uncertain time for her as some people are deciding to return to the gym. They must be mad when we can do Barre and Pilates over Zoom, rolling out of bed to do classes in our sleepwear. My Pilates teacher and friend have bought wigs so they can wear them out with me. They’re such good friends: it’s really touching.

Arranging things to do for Birthday on 15th May: lunch with my Barre chums on Monday 17th May – thank G-d there are six of us. Out Out to sit outside the Pembroke Castle 🏰 in Primrose Hill at 6pm on Saturday 22nd May. Am So Excited.

Attend the beautician today 💅🏻 for the first time since I think last February. Now have fluorescent pink glittery toes. Forgot how long it takes: one hour and ten minutes. There are no copies of Hello there anymore so just fiddle with my phone and speak to Albanian Sara who is just learning English. Have to wear a mask 😷 which I really hate as I can’t breathe properly in it because of my lungs 🫁. Won’t be returning in a hurry.

Jade who did my Minx toes has left. Sylvie is the new owner and just charged me for bikini line wax as so little hair on legs. This is So Kind of her. Really recommend Beauty Secrets in Radlett: have been going there for years. They are very busy at the moment so I’d book well in advance.

We have a new eating plan to avoid me being sick at night but… wait… I feel very sick already 😢. New Plan is big lunch, meditate and sleep, tea and then tiny supper at six o’clock: staying out of bed till nine o’clock.

Happy Tuesday everyone!

*2017. By Anne Clinhard Barnhill. Murder mystery novel in which a beautician is stabbed through the heart.

The Snow Killer*

Heavy snow this morning, which is exciting. It falls in huge clumps.

Fluffball goes out in it. Here is a photo taken by Mum:

Gandalf’s owner brings him round to see us. Kiss him and cuddle him. He loves the snow:

Read my Martin Amis book Inside Story. It’s jolly good: an autobiographical novel with tips on how to write. Can’t wait to return to it in a minute.

Mum sorts out some old sheets and towels to give to the local RSPCA animal shelter where they need them for the animals.

Have lunch, meditate and sleep. Watch an episode of Medici: there is a Murder. Can’t imagine enjoying another series This Much.

Will have plenty of time to read tomorrow at chemo so I’m looking forward to that. If we can get there in the snow that is.

Happy Saturday everyone!

*2019. By Ross Greenwood. Crime fiction thriller.

Death Serves An Ace*

Walk Gandalf in the woods. It is good to see him and cuddle him. He picks up an enormous stick but it is too big for him to carry home.

We let Fluffball out for the first time this morning. He is a good and clever boy and finds his way home. Mum tells him that he can go out again tomorrow but I don’t know if cats understand the concept of tomorrow.

Have lunch, meditate and sleep. Wake up and have coffee and stewed apple. Watch the third set of Novak vs Domi. Domi wins the match on the third set tiebreak.

Read a bit of Ultimate Prizes: it’s So Good.

We are going to watch a Silent Witness later.

Fluffball is sleeping on the piano stool.

Happy Saturday everyone!

*1939. By Helen Wills and Robert William Murphy. Golden age detective novel.


Friday afternoon after my audiobook session, Dad drops me back at the flat.

Go on local radio 📻, talking about my missing Fluffball.

Meditate and sleep and then watch Midsommar which is good.

On Saturday I wake up and then do Barre – I’ve brought my weights and bands and little ball back to the flat. Then my friend visits at lunchtime and we sit in the garden.

After my sleep, my Pilates teacher and my Pilates chum and her Weimaraner visit. Here they are:

We go for a walk in Child’s Hill Park, the small park opposite the flat. It is good to see them and they stay until about six thirty in the garden. They bring me a present: a beautiful dusky pink fluffy dressing gown from Marks and Spencer.

Then watch the new Rebecca which is not very good.

This morning I tidy up a bit and wait for Dad to pick me up. Have lunch with the parentals and a walk around the garden with Mum. The pinks are out:

We are going to watch a Silent Witness tonight which means we will be starting it before supper which will be vegetable curry.

It is a nice day now: the sky is blue.

Mum has decided that if Fluffball doesn’t return we can get a new cat from Ragdoll Rescue in January.

Happy Sunday everyone!

*2019. Feature film starring Florence Pugh, Jack Reynor, Vilhelm Blomgren and William Jackson. Directed and written by Ari Aster.

Mastiffs, Mystery and Murder*

Walk Gandalf with Mum in the woods. It is so good to see him and cuddle him.

Record my audiobook. It’s all finished now: today was my last session.

I am sad as I really enjoyed reading the book out loud. Feel good because the book is excellent.

Go on BBC Three Counties Radio 📻 to talk about my missing Fluffball. Afterwards a listener called them to say his cat has just had kittens and there’s an orange one I could have. I declined as we are still hoping that Fluffball will turn up. If he doesn’t, we will hopefully get a Ragdoll from Ragdoll Rescue in the spring.

Dad drives me back to the flat. Meditate and sleep.

Am sad to find out that my brother’s friend with breast cancer now has it in her lungs too. Exchange some messages with her on Instagram. Life is cruel.

Am going to read my Rebus book 📖 and have a warm evening in my flat and an early night.

Happy Saturday everyone!

*2017. By Sandra Baublitz. A Dog Detective Series novel, Book 1.

Magpie Lane*

I can’t believe I almost forgot to write a blog.

Wake up at 5.30am and do my Season Of The Witch Tarot Challenge:

Work hard at Pilates and teacher is pleased with me.

Say goodbye to Fluffball as Mum takes him to the Cattery for his holiday:

Haven’t been well enough to walk Gandalf so his lovely owners bring him round to see me:

I kiss and cuddle my precious boy. It’s so good to see him.

Lunch is baked potato 🥔 with baked beans and cheese 🧀 and salad 🥗.

Aunty and Uncle visit us in the garden as it stops raining for an hour. My wonderful Aunty brings me my favourite cheese and celery sandwich 🥪 from Marks and Spencer which is so kind of her.

Meditate and sleep. Wake up and have pineapple 🍍 and ice cream 🍨.

Finish Magpie Lane by Lucy Atkins. Only started it yesterday. It really is unputdownable: a psychological thriller set in Oxford. Highly recommend it.

It feels all lonely in the house without our Fluffball 😢.

Going away to Suffolk tomorrow to see Maria. Can’t wait. Hotel has an outdoor jacuzzi so pack a swimming costume. As usual case is full to bursting and have to take pink rucksack 🎒 and a shoulder bag. Need to take a couple of summer dresses out of the case and put in some with covered shoulders.

It is raining again now. Hope it doesn’t rain 🌧 all the time we are away. On Monday we are going to the Owl 🦉 Sanctuary where I’ve adopted a Great Grey Owl. Excited to meet my owl. Also if it’s raining there won’t be flying displays which would love to see.

Happy Saturday everyone!

*2020. By Lucy Atkins. Psychological thriller.

Heaven On Earth*

Have lovely long sleep from about ten o’clock last night till quarter to seven this mornings

Do my Astro Challenge Tarot post:

Walk Gandalf at half past eight with Mum:

He is So Happy to see us. We have a good walk with cuddles. Climbing a slope, my breathing isn’t as laboured as it has been recently, so perhaps lung has expanded further.

Work ever so hard at Pilates and my teacher is pleased with me.

Fluffball has four breakfasts but we don’t see him after eleven o’clock.

Have bath 🛀.

Brother visits for lunch in the garden. He sits across the table from the rest of us. Now he’s no longer Shielding we can’t hug 🤗 him which is So Sad 😭. He makes his way down to the village to find a cafe in which to work.

Meditate and sleep, but am only asleep for ninety minutes so wake up exhausted. Shuffle around the block for half an hour.

On my return, some parental friends are here. Sit with Mum on the swinging chair and eat my banana 🍌 and ice cream 🍨.

Fill up the Fatball feeder. Whilst am at the front door: see Fluffball waiting outside it. Take him down to my bedroom where he is cleaning himself and resting.

Listen to Britney Spears Blackout this morning whilst am dressing.

Happy Friday everyone!

*2007. By Britney Spears. Britney’s favourite song on her 2007 Blackout album.