Getting Better*

Things are definitely improving, I think as I struggle up the hill with Mr Fluffypants trotting along beside me:

  1. Against all the odds and despite all my problems, have a lovely New Boy.
  2. Still have Mr Fluffypants in my life.
  3. Plus two more dog clients: the flat-coated Retriever and the Newfoundland.
  4. Have started the biophosphonates.
  5. Have lost most of the cancer weight since stopping drinking.
  6. Am Still Not Drinking after five months.
  7. Which is cause for celebration.
  8. Can fit back into my size eight / twenty six inch waist clothes.
  9. Although am still about ten pounds over my pre-cancer weight.
  10. Some of it must be muscle.

Anyway, take Mr Fluffypants for a walk today:

Then meet my cousin for lunch and then watch T2 Trainspotting which is good but spend half of it on the loo due to upset tummy from the biophosphonates.

Have the Roger vs Rafa match to watch when I have my supper – probably scrambled eggs.

Happy Sunday everyone!
*1967.  Song by John Lennon and Paul McCartney.  Appears on the 1967 Beatles album Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Cub Band.

Love Calls You By Your Name*

Have another date secured with my new boy for Saturday night.  Yay.  Love has not finished with me quite yet it seems.  Feel amazingly blessed to have this new boy in my life.  He’s adorable. So thank you to G-d for him and please please please let me keep him…

Today make it to the Natural History Museum with Mum.  Here are some photos:

Sophie the Stegosaurus – one of the most complete stegosaurus skeletons ever discovered:

Some velociraptors fighting.  Look how feathery they are ❤:

A megatherium (extinct giant sloth):

Love these ones so much.  Wish they weren’t extinct.

A mastodon (I think).  Some extinct elephant relative anyway.

An arsinoitherium – extinct relative of the rhinoceros:

Anyway – we have fun at the museum.  We also see the Wildlife Photographer of the Year exhibition.  Can’t put photos in here due to copyright reasons of course.  Recommend the exhibition.  Book it here:

Now am in bed at the parental home under my furry blanket with the heating turned up to eleven.  Am listening to Leonard Cohen’s Songs Of Love And Hate and drinking tea.

This person is here:

Have missed him all week but he’s somewhere else in the house at the moment.  As soon as have posted this will go and find him and cuddle him all over.

Have a new stegosaurus of my own from the museum.  He’s called Steve.  Show you:

Unlike Sophie, he’s very soft for cuddles.  He also has a linseed pouch inside him which can be heated in the microwave so he’s a hot water bottle too!

Happy Wednesday everyone!
*1971.  Song by Leonard Cohen from the 1971 album Songs Of Love And Hate.

Crazy To Love You*

There’s a new boy in my life

He’s only twenty three –

One wonders what he wants

With someone as old as me.

And all my insecurities 

Come rushing in:

Does he really like me,

How can he even like me –

I’m too old and ill and mental,

He’s got his whole life ahead of him.

He can earn a living

Singing and playing his guitar:

His first single’s out this week –

He’s so good at what he does.

And is it my disorder

That fills me with such doubt

Or is it all the knocks I’ve had

From Seb and countless others –

Nightmares in their different ways.

I’ve made such a mess of love –

But I can’t do without it.

Male attention is my favourite drug,

And you know how I like them young.

He’s got floppy hair,

An innocent face,

A winning smile.

He’s intense with an artistic temperament:

Takes himself so seriously

As young men do.

He’s malleable and graceful,

Enthusiastic and sweet.

I can’t believe that I’ve got another chance

To make someone happy –

Please let me not fuck it up this time:

I deserve a bit of good luck

Although we know it doesn’t work like that.

He’s coming to see me this evening –

Maybe I’ll even wash my hair,

Put on a dress, heels and make up

Cover my anxiety with glitter eyeliner and lipstick.

And he’ll never know how scared I am

That it’ll all end in tears

Like it always bloody does.

The attached photo is today’s Spin outfit.

Here is graph.  Forgot to take monitor off for ages after the end of Spin.  The green and yellow is in the actual class:

Here is the fluffy monster earlier today:

And some from the farm this morning:

Happy Saturday everyone!
*2012.  Song by Leonard Cohen from the 2012 album Old Ideas.