Death At Woods Hole*

Wake up and talk to Katie from Mind. Then have Personal Training over Zoom. Do more than thirty timed exercises and my trainer is pleased with me.

Have lunch, meditate and sleep. Go out in the garden with parents and Fluffball. The Alliums are opening:

And here is the first of the irises:

Fluffball sits at the bottom of the garden by the fence but when we turn again to look for him he has vanished. He must’ve disappeared into the hedge on one side or the other. Mum is out looking for him now.

I need to have my bath ๐Ÿ›€. Am writing this lying on my bed and the panther sits on the windowsill, looking out over the garden. Every so often the tip of his tail twitches.

Happy Thursday everyone!

*2012. By Frances McNamara. An Emily Cabot mystery, Book 4.

The Familiars*

This morning I do my Personal Training over Zoom. I work very hard and do thirty six different exercises. My trainer is pleased with me.

It’s raining and Fluffball is in a lot so I play with him using his piece of elastic which he likes to catch. He’s in for the evening now:

I finish the Pat Barker book yesterday and have just started this which my lovely Aunty gave me and is about witches ๐Ÿง™โ€โ™€๏ธ:

Need to have my bath ๐Ÿ›€ now and then we have spaghetti for supper.

Yesterday Mum records a black and white film with Deborah Kerr from Talking Pictures so we will watch that. More details tomorrow.

Am lying on my bed and the panther lies on the floor next to me. He is grooming his flank: rasping it with his rough tongue.

Happy Thursday everyone!

*2019. By Stacey Halls. Historical novel.


Wake up and do my Personal Training over Zoom. Work hard and my trainer is pleased with me.

Finish my Patricia Highsmith biography.

Start reading this which is about a short-lived revolution in Bavaria in 1918 where the writers took power. It is fascinating:

Have lunch, meditate and sleep and then continue reading my book in the garden. Fluffball is outside with me.

Mum takes Fluffball in. He is now sitting on his favourite chair in the playroom:

Today’s card is XII: The Hanged Man. He is the perfect symbol for the limbo of lockdown:

I need to have my bath ๐Ÿ›€ and move my weights and Pilates ball out of my bedroom. Am lying on my bed writing this. The panther lies on my gym mat on the floor.

Happy Thursday everyone!

*2017. By Volker Weidermann. Historical book.

The Garden Murder Case*

Today I do Barre over Zoom which is hard work but fun.

Sit in the garden and read my book with Dad.

Have lunch and then take a turn about the garden with Mum.

We see the auriculas:


And the tulips ๐ŸŒท under my window:

Meditate and have a long sleep till 5.15pm. Wake up and have an apple ๐ŸŽ and coffee โ˜•๏ธ.

Whilst I am sleeping, my lovely trainer drops round a small Pilates ball; a yoga band and a woven stretchy band. It’s so kind of her. Now I can use these in Barre and Personal Training.

Fluffball is in now and sleeping on top of my blanket:

Am writing this on my bed. The panther is lying on my pillow: curled up asleep.

Now I must have my bath ๐Ÿ›€.

Fluffball just opens my closed bedroom door and is now in here with me. He sits underneath my window.

Happy Monday everyone!

*1935. By S. S. Van Dine. The ninth Philo Vance detective novel.

Dial M For Murder*

Last night we watch Dial M For Murder which is one of my favourite Hitchcock films. In fact, it’s one of my favourite films. It is wonderful and on Netflix. Urge you to watch it.

Today do Personal Training over Zoom. Pack a lot of stuff in and my trainer is pleased with me.

Cyclezone have added another Zoom Pilates class tomorrow at 11am so I sign up for that.

It is warm so we sit and read our books in the garden before lunch, and then have lunch in the garden.

Here are the tulips ๐ŸŒท underneath my window. They are meant to be pink and purple and of course they’re not, but I think they’re beautiful:

Meditate and have a long sleep till almost five o’clock. Then have coffee โ˜•๏ธ and melon ๐Ÿˆ and do my Tarot For Growth April post.

We have a Zoom dinner with my parental friends again tonight. We are having curry so need to make Raita after my bath ๐Ÿ›€.

Haven’t seen my Fluffball all day. He has been out in the sunshine.

Am lying on my bed writing this and the panther sits on the windowsill looking out over the garden. Every so often, the tip of his tail twitches.

Happy Thursday everyone!

*1954. Stars Ray Milland and Grace Kelly. Directed by Alfred Hitchcock.


We watch Psycho last night for a treat. It’s so brilliant. Love Hitchcock.

When I wake up this morning it is snowing:

It’s so exciting. Fluffball goes out in it and comes in soaked. It’s so pretty.

Put antidepressant dose up when thought mood was going down but now it has gone too much up. Find myself being irritable with parents and annoy them. So will drop the antidepressant dose again. Sigh. It’s important mood is not high when am in hospital as don’t want to annoy the nurses with my demands. Last time was in hospital when mood was high, was phoning Mum at six o’clock in the morning to beg her to come and see me and look after me.

Seeing psychiatrist Dr Stein on Saturday at least. Phew ๐Ÿ˜….

We go to the garden centre for a treat and see the donkeys on the way.

Hospital calls. Am going in on Monday for a few days. Will have a chest drain put in to get rid of the fluid from lungs slowly. Mood must not be too high in hospital as it will annoy the nurses.

Go to the cancer hospital for blood tests where the nurse explains to me that my constant nausea is caused by the fluid pressing lungs against stomach so stomach in turn presses upwards, towards my oesophagus. She puts an anti-sickness agent through my port.

See my trainer and work hard:

Have to lie down due to nausea but we work everything. Spend an hour and fifteen minutes training.

Come home and have a long sleep from three o’clock till six o’clock. Am very tired. Feel calm which is good.

Happy Thursday everyone!

*1960. Feature film ๐ŸŽฅ directed by Alfred Hitchcock. Screenplay by Joseph Stefano, adapted from the book by Robert Bloch. Stars Anthony Perkins, Janet Leigh, Vera Miles and John Gavin.


Have some fluid in right lung and have just seen lung specialist who will drain the fluid next week. He then suggests a small operation which will mean I just spend a few days in hospital.

Have a bath. Work hard at training. Finish my Canine Communication Diploma this morning. Have a sleep. Tonight we have Spaghetti for supper yay!
We have a new episode of Midsomer Murders to watch tonight yay.

*2011. Play by Duncan Macmillan.

Murder With Peacocks*

Yesterday I walk Gandalf. It’s a cold but sunny day. He finds a stick but doesn’t manage to carry it home. I work hard at Barre. Am brave at my blood tests at the cancer hospital. Domi beats darling Rafa which is very sad.

Today I watch Novak beating an injured Roger. Have a bath ๐Ÿ›€. Catch the train to parentals and see Fluffball. See the above peacock ๐Ÿฆš at the farm. Work really hard at training. Have a sleep.

I’ve just woken up after a long sleep and completed Module One of my Feline Behaviour and Psychology course. It’s spaghetti for supper.

I’m going to study Fluffball’s behaviour for my course and make sure his needs are being met.

Big day tomorrow starting at 8.30am when Domi plays Sascha. So there will be a Next Gen player in the final on Sunday. I hope it’s Sascha but Domi on great form.

Am drinking a ginger drink for my nausea. Tomorrow I’m doing a Tarot Reading for one of Mum’s friends after Pilates.

Happy Thursday everyone!

*1999. By Donna Andrews. A Meg Lanslow mystery Book One.

The Killing Way*

Wake up early and watch Nick Kyrgios win his match and Sascha Zverev win his match. Rafa also wins his match but miss it as am out with Dad.

Dad comes to the flat to send an email. Parentals have no email or phone line since a car crashed into the box in the road. BT will look at the damaged box on Monday.

Work hard at training and trainer is pleased with me.

Come home for a long sleep. Have just woken up.

Achieve a Distinction in my Kabbalah Diploma. Next courses are Canine Communication and Feline Behaviour And Psychology. Soon I will be able to understand my Fluffball. Hope I don’t discover that he hates us and wants us to leave him alone.

Today pull the Ace Of Swords ๐Ÿ—ก from my Barbieri Tarot deck which is a positive card of facing up to new challenges which for me is the challenge of my new cat ๐Ÿฑ and dog ๐Ÿ• courses.

Now we are going to watch Madagascar Island Stories or whatever it is called. There are lots of different species of lemur obviously.

Am excited as we have a new episode of Midsomer Murders to watch after supper. Can knit ๐Ÿงถ and be with my Fluffball.

Happy Thursday everyone!

*2011. By Anthony Hays. Dark Age mystery novel set in Arthurian Britain.

And Then There Were None*

Wake up at 5.30am and finish my book. Then watch Team Australia beat us 18 – 16 in the doubles. So now we’re out of the ATP Cup which is sad.

The above photo of Fluffball is six years ago today. Today he climbs up on the wall outside and disappears down the other side.

Watch most of Daniil Medvedev vs Diego Schwartzman. Medvedev gets a warning and then a point deducted for a second warning. Have a bath ๐Ÿ›€ and paint my nails ๐Ÿ’…๐Ÿป.

Work hard at Personal Training – see above photo.

Pull the Nine Of Coins (Pentacles) from my Tarot Grande Luxe by Ciro Marchetti deck. A refined woman holds a hooded falcon. We can assume she’s a woman of means because she is well dressed and falconry is a sport of the privileged class. But her demeanour is sombre; falconry is not merely an entertaining pastime, but a metaphor for personal restraint and control over one’s own natural and wilder instincts.

I love Ciro Marchetti’s art and this deck. I also have his Gilded Tarot.

I bring Nine Of Pentacles energy to my training and meditation and sleep: have a lovely long sleep this afternoon.

Now am watching Nick Kyrgios vs Cameron Norrie from earlier today.

Tonight it’s the Spinach and Mushroom Bottomless Quiche. Am looking forward to my supper. Then we’re watching the 1974 film of And Then There Were None which stars Oliver Reed and Herbert Lom.

Happy Thursday everyone!

*1939. By Agatha Christie. The world’s best selling mystery novel.